4 EVER THIN

Taken From: My Living Hell

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You question food you buy at the store that says "Fat Free" not buying it because they might have put the wrong lable on the container

you send food back at resturants all the time for reasons like, but not limited to: I said no butter, I forgot I don't like this, this is not skim milk, will you repour my drink, just in case you forgot I said DIET, or maybe having asked for the dressing on the side only to see it in a small dish seeping over onto your salad (mine as well just dump it right on there!)...

At a resturant you give specific instructions how to cook your food...clean the grill before cooking your food, keeping your food away from the fried foods, not letting any butter or oils touch your food.. no cheese's milks, breads, meat... or just about anything... then when it comes don't eat it just in case they didn't follow your instructions... maybe even believeing they are all trying to make you fat.

Buy a shit load of food, when your on a healthy kick ... only to find yourself throwing it away by the time you walk through the door to put the food "away"

You weigh in at least 3 times a day... when you drink a glass of water, pee the water, before you poop, after you poop, before you vomit, after you vomit, when you wake up, before going to sleep, before a run, and after the run...

Do some people refuse to go out to eat with you?

Your fridge has mainly diet drink, water, pickles, condoments in it?

Do you like salt?

how many laxatives do you take in a day?

is not vomiting your food a good day? bad day?

Do you purposely walk every where.... even if it mean leaving home 2 hours in advance?

Do you spend hours in the grocery store looking at food lables... or find yourself spending 80% of your time in the store picking out foods, and 20% of your time putting them back on the shelves where you got them?

Are you embarassed that someone you know caught you OMG "EATING" or "BUYING FOOD"

when buying, ordering or eating foods, do your thoughts consist of how easily/hard it will be to throw it up?

Do you some times throw up, low cal foods that just make feel like your being weighed down?

Do you love the feeling of hunger.... in its many forms.... real hunger, dreams and desires....what ever you hunger for...

Do you get dizzy alot..

Do you chain smoke so you don't eat?

how many times a day do you brush you teeth... every time your hungry...or half the time

Do you feel the need to know how you look at all times?

When someone looks at you do you think: they can tell I  at a piece of bread 2 hours ago.... its bulging out of my jeans!

Do you think when looking at food... "why don't I just rub that on my hips, rather than eat it, whats the point its just going to end up there anyway"

have you ever even for a momment concidered cutting the fat off of your body.... no pain no gain... or I can live with the scars...but I can't live with the fat dimples....

how fast can you down 2 big macs, 3 slices of cheese, 2 pb&j sandwiches... oh yea and a diet coke? 5? or  10 minutes?

When seeing other people eat are you disgusted? the sounds of the chewing, the opening and chomping down, the thump of the teeth.... or maybe even drooling.... like it must be so nice to be able to eat...

Do people get sick of shopping with you for food, because it takes you so long to read all the nutrition labels of every food item you pick up?

Do you not eat foods that do not have nutrition labels without looking them up first?

Do you were black alot because its "slimming"

Do you remember what you ate 3 months ago, but can't remember what you did yesterday? Other than what you ate, or didn't eat, or how many reps of exercise you did?

Have you ever made food for people (didn't eat any of it) and picked up their plates to clean them and put them away before they were finished eating?

do you thow away food to make people think you ate?

Do you throw away "dangerous" food or food that is "taunting" you?

Do you watch people eat, and feel some sort of jelousy? and wonder "how do they do that, how can they take that big of a bite? another bite already? do they know that that sandwich with white bread, cheese (2 slices), tomatoes (1/4) lettuce, mayo (2 servings), and thin sliced turkey (5 slices) has 470 cals 38 grams of fat? would they still eat if if they did? it must be nice to be normal"

Do you wish people would notice more that you had an ed, meaning that you looked too skinny (as if there was such a thing)? or are you sick of people telling you to eat... its getting old.... and you think they need to just give up, ana has you and shes not letting go, and shit its out of your control... you can't help them....by eating...you don't have any say anymore.... so why don't they just stop asking you

do you have dreams about food and think that you really ate it when you woke up?

have you ever "dreamed" you ate, but come to find out you really did, so you strave for at least 2 weeks for that one cracker you ate in your sleep?

Do you hate... and I mean HATE thanksgiving? Does everyone watch you eat during thanks give with that look "is she gonna eat"?  

if you answered yes to a lot of these questions then you might have a few screws loose too...

Do you ever feel like this... or is it just me?