4 EVER THIN

I want to be thin because…

1. Thin is beautiful

2. I want to be under 100 pounds

3. I want to be a size 0

4. I want my husband to love me

5. I want my husband to stop looking at other girls/college girls and start looking at me

6. I want people to say I am “so thin”

7. I want my mom to jealous of how thin I am

8. I want to see my ribs

9. I want to see my hip bones

10. I want to feel comfortable with someone touching me

11. I want to be the littlest one

12. Being thin is proof to myself that I am a strong person and that I can do something right for a change

13. Loosing weight is something I am good at

14. I want to feel beautiful and attractive

15. I don’t want to have jealousy burning in me every time my husband looks at another female

16. I don’t want people whispering about how fat I am

17. I don’t want people laughing at me for being fat

18. I want to be other peoples thinspiration

19. I want to be perfect

20. I need it

21. I want it.

22. I just need to feel beautiful

23. I want my husband to lift me up effortlessly

24. I don’t want to be the fat one any more

25. I want to alter the smallest size of any dress to a smaller size so that it would fit me.

26. I want to feel my bones

27. I want to be that “thin girl”

28. I want people to think I’m fragile and light so they want to protect me and look after me even though I don’t need them too

29. I love the power I feel when I am hungry and don’t eat anything to fill that void

30. I love the feeling of my clothes becoming baggy and the feeling of the comments that I have lost weight

31. I want to be the one with the flattest stomach and the smallest waist

32. I want to fit 5 of me through the door all at the same time

33. I wish to dance between the raindrops without getting wet

34. I want to turn side ways and disappear before your eyes

35. I want a helium balloon to carry me up into the clouds

36. I want to be able to get into the shower with my husband

37. I want to say YES to the things my husband wants and needs and not let my jelly rolls of fat get in the way of his pleasure and happiness

38. I want people that know me to turn around an say “ wow you look great”

39. I want to be pretty

40. I want to be loved

41. I want to be able to have confidence

42. I want to be able to wear a dress and feel girly

43. I want to be happy

44. I want people to want to me.

45. I want to be thin

46. I just want to have control over something in my life

47. I want to be sure when I sit on some ones lap, they will not suffer because of my fat.

48. I want to be able to get into those kinky sex potions

49. I want to fit into my husbands clothes (he is skinny)

50. I want people to think of me as thin and strong

51. People will find me more attractive

52. I will be able to be picked up with out breaking some ones back

53. People will want to be around me more

54 I can look good in any thing

55. I can walk down the street in shorts without my legs wobbling like jelly

56. I want my husband to pick me up and carry me all around and say “your so light”

57. Thin to me means feeling young, sexy, and having fun

58. I will not be anyone’s reverse trigger

59. I will be able to wear skirts and shorts with out worring about my thighs

60. I want to be able to look in the mirror and know I have achieved something.

61. I want to get rid of self-conscious feelings of being fat

62. I want to be able to feel confident wearing a bathing suit

63. I want this challenge

64. I want to win

65. I need control

66. I feel like crap after eating

67. If I don’t eat, I won’t binge

68. Calories cant make me happy

69. Eating makes me miserable

70. I can run on sheer mind power alone

71. I have the will power

72. I want people to look at me and think “I wish I was that thin”

73. I won't hate my body

74. I want to be some ones Thinspiration

75. I don’t want to take up to much space

76. I want to be delicate and light like all the other dancers

77. I want to fit into the XXS clothes and still have them be baggy on me

78. I want to think I’m strong and have such control over what I eat

79. I want people to say that I am small and not just mean I am short

80. I want to ask the fitting room attendant if they have anything smaller

81. I want to wear shorts with out crossing my legs and still look thin

82. I want everyone to comment on my small frame

83. I like bones poking out, especially my hip and collar bones

84. I want the smallest waist

85. I want my husband to show me off

86. I want to feel healthy and alive again

87. I don’t ever want to be called pudgy again

88. I don’t ever want to be called fluffy again

89. When people stare at me I won’t have to question why they are staring, I will know its cause I am so thin

90. I want to be able to run super fast with out all this fat holding me back

91. When someone has to describe me, I want them to say “she weighs like 90, 100 lbs”

92. Starving is a great example of excellent will power

93. I want to be able to see my beautiful bones

94. I don’t want to look like those fat, trailer trash hookers on Jerry Springer

95. Fat is dirty and gross, bones are clean and beautiful

96. I want to look like those beautiful, thin, models

97. Any one can have inner beauty, but only a few can have real outside beauty

98. To many people in the world are obese and I don’t want to be one of them

99. I will be able to move as quite and as skillful as a spider

100. Thin people are very graceful

101. Under weight aka perfect body

102. I want to walk through the snow with out leaving foot prints

103. I don’t want to be so huge that people look away from me like I don’t exist

104. The only time men do notice fat girls is when they get in the way of the thin, beautiful girl going by

105. Eating is conforming to every ones expectations and I don’t want to conform

106. Food causes plague and rots my teeth

107. I don’t want giggly arms

108. No one wants a fat dancer

109. I won’t have to spend hours looking for something to wear, cause I will look good in everything

110. I will be able to wear a bikini and not feel ashamed

111. I don’t want to have to cry myself to sleep anymore, wishing I was thin

112. I don’t want to look in the mirror and feel repulsed by what I see

113. I want to be able to automatically take the smallest size on the rack when I go shopping

114. I want to lie down on my stomach and feel the pain of my bones against the floor

115. I don’t want to be “average” I want to be described as skinny

116. I want people to look at me and wonder if I am ANA or naturally thin

117. Everything can be fixed with  a weight loss

118. So I won't have fatty areas to stretch and sag when I get older

119. So I don't get sweaty on hot days

120. You don't ever hear anyone making fun of a skinny person,

121. I want my coller bones and hips to be as sharp as my mind

122. I want all clothes to look good on me

123. I want my family to say "wow you have lost weight",

124. I want people to say "you should be a model"

125. I could have a chance to be a model

126. I would be photogenic

127. I really need to be thin

128. I want people to be envy of me

129. I could have any guy or girl that I want

130. People would not make fun of me

131. I would not have jiggy thighs

132. I would not feel uncomfortable when some one touchs me

133. I could have sex with the light on

134. My period would stop, meaning no more bloating

135. I would look good naked

136. I wouldn't feel constantly bloated anymore

137. I would not feel fat and pathedic

138. I would not have cellulite everywhere

139. I wouldn't have to suck my stomach in

140. All my dreams would come true

141. I would not have to wear baggy clothes all the time to cover up my fat.

142. Big people sweat more and they smell bad

143. There is someone who says I am hopeless, I have to prove her wrong

144.  To  prove that I can do anything

145. To prove to my ex's I was worth it.

146. To show that I am capable of making a decision and sticking to it

147. I am doing this for me to feel better about my self. and feel more confindent

148. I won't be ashamed of myself