ABOUT ME
Name: Ruth.
Age: 35
Married
Children: 2 boys and a girl. ages 12, 11 and 8
ED: ednos/ana
How long? over 20 year
HW: 225.8
CW: 187.8
LW: 87
goal 1: 180
goal 2: 162
goal 3: 151
goal 4: 138
goal 5: 127
goal 6: 114
goal 7: 109
goal 8: 102
U. goal: 95 or lower
This is what I want to look like.
How I Became Ana
ok where to start.
Originally I became Ana when I was thirteen. when My dad started to rape me. He raped me from the time was 13 till I moved out at 18. I weighed 140 pounds at 13 and by the time I was 18 I was I actually weighed 87 pounds.
Then After I moved out I went back up to 105.
I stayed that till I got pregnant at 21. I ended up having 3 kids in 4 years. Not something I would suggest lol. I was up to a disgusting 170 pounds after having 3 kids. A year later I was back down to 105 again. Not great but do able for that time.
Then 5 Years ago I got married to a guy I had been with for 8 years. They were the greatest 8 years of my life, But once we got married everything went down hill. We moved from Missouri to Ohio. We live in the country and I am not allowed to work. My husband become a real ass hole. I didn't care any more. so I started to gain weight and the more weight the more he seemed to hate me. I got up to 225.8 pounds.
December 2005 we went to his work Christmas party and he started to flirt with one of his coworkers right in front of me. I was devastated. In January we got pictures from the Christmas party. Pictures of my husband and me. He had a forced smile on his face and you could tell from the picture I was ready to cry. It was also the first time I actually seen how overly out of control I was. I just wanted to die. The picture now hangs on my refrigerator.
I had two choices I could kill myself, leave my children motherless and let my husband win, or I could try to take control back over my self. Since February 2006 I have lost 45 pounds. I feel more in control then I have in years.
Now with my husband it goes back and forth. He has noticed I have lost weight and when I tell him I have lost 2 or more pounds in a week he tells me that I am doing so good and he shows me that he loves me. He is more loving and buys me new clothes and things. But if I don't lose weight or like one week I gained 1.2 pounds, then I am a fat cow and lazy good for nothing. to put it nicely.
Probably more then you wanted to know. Oh well
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